If only you knew

Filling out my 'Personal Objectives' form for my placement.

What are your current weaknesses?
Speaking out and communicating effectively.

I never say what I really want to say. Things come out of my mouth rehearsed because I give the same answers all the time- and they're never the right ones. But when I let the floodgates open, man, does it flow.

I wish I told you...

that it was me all along. even though you knew.

that I was angry, but I could never fathom being mad at you.

that I listen to you, because I know no one else would.

that you were my first.

how I really felt, even though you never wanted to hear it.

the truth.



Oh well, I'm halfway there.