Walk Around With Me

Just watched Crash. Man, you may think the world's fucked up, but you actually have no idea.

Honestly, I've never dealt with blatant racism. Even here, where you just know that certain people are not talking to you because you're Asian (but least they're not telling you that's the reason). And I have gotten offended when people assume I can't speak English. I've even gotten flack for not hanging around my own "race" more.

Never outright discrimination for being different.

But on Friday night, I couldn't help but feel like I was being purposely left out because I wasn't one of "them". It wasn't about being socially adept, it was just about being part of the whole stereotype, which I obviously wasn't. Maybe it was because I was the "only odd one out", but I had never felt so isolated before.

I did hold myself back. Who doesn't when you're faced with 30 people you've never met before and you're trying to make a good first impression? Oh well, gathered up all the dignity I had and turned up for leftovers lunch the next day and it all turned out ok.

Danny Boy is back! And we're gonna go watch Lost now. Yay! Human contact! Have only been on my own for like a day but fuck it. Syarina's in LONDON now too! So I'll probably go down there and see her next week if she can't make it up to Bath. Toodless!

Volatile

Am typing this as he takes a nap. Having to entertain people from 7 in the evening to almost 5 in the morning and then for lunch time (including having to deal with me early this morning! :P) can take a toll on you.

I guess if it's not one thing, then it's another. There's always going to be that little something that keeps things far from perfect and makes things a little more worthwhile. Meanwhile, I'm happily shaking my feet to the hundreds of RnB songs on his laptop that he played throughout the whole of last night. My kaki in RnB goodness and the loathe of cheesy music :).

Oh, HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR everyone! Another thing I don't get to celebrate this time. Bah.

It's going to be a slow week...

Lethargic

From happily cooking kebabs and listening to RNB,

To him shouting out for me outside my bedroom window,

And me curled up in bed, sobbing on the phone to Farwin.

So much for the magical weekend.

I'm going back to bed.

Leveled out

I can't believe I'm saying this, but I kinda look forward to having a routine back again. Just the whole exams and no classes on is making me BORED. Having work sucks definitely, but it gives me something to do! Accounting exam today wasn't too bad-didn't balance, but fuck it, the other stuff were pretty easy. Econs on Thursday. How exciting.

Our house fire alarm went off just now and it was pretty bizarre. Apparently, one of those "break glass in case of fire" alarms went off on our corridor, but it wasn't even broken. I got a bit jakun when 3 fire engines came at once and all these firemen ran into our house. Hee. I think the the other houses like us a little less now as it was fucking freezing outside and they couldn't get the alarm turned off.

One whole paragraph on a fire alarm! Lordy lord!

My macha is out with his machas. Everyone is studying or asleep. The two jokers downstairs are watching Family Guy for the gazillionth time. ( might just join them soon)

As I said before, we're taking it easy. But excuse me if I am going to seem vulgar, but I wanna violate this one so bad and take advantage of his double bed. Self-control is working fine so far though.

After exams. After exams.

Lately

Got a mock interview with Pricewaterhouse Coopers on the 14th of February. Intimidating much? Our mock interview schedules were finally posted up and everyone's all hyped up about it. Seems like I won't have much of a break after this exams (which I am not quite prepared for!)- now I gotta prepare for this! Though I'm not really interested working with an accountancy firm, nor do I think I have the mental and physical capacity for investment banking either even if it does pay a whole lot. This advertising company called Saatchi and Saatchi sounds really interesting and I might look into that. Ergh! This placement thing is so stressful!

Been mostly locked in my room studying. With occasional breaks with Shaymal or he'll text me to check up on me; You've been sitting there for 2 hours now!, I think it's time you took a break! or Hun, the pink sweater is falling off your chair.

We're taking it easy, it's all good.

Watching Jarhead tonight with everyone. Three girlie girls just wanting to see Jake Gylenhall on the big screen and three guys just wanting to see a napalm bomb blow up in his face.