Which Way Is Out

He's gone on Monday.

*BLUBBER*

Least I got to spend more time with him this time around. But it still wasn't enough. I won't say more than just the fact that I love his company and I'm really going to miss him.

Unfortunately, still no sparkbangbangfireworks type things. It's alright. Least holidays in the States are the same as UK so I'll see him in December! :)


p.s. Chrissy, how now? I have just that ONE.

Pretense

There's just no winning with certain people sometimes.

I guess with me things have to be crystal clear. Be blunt. Be rude. Be honest. Be whatever.

I have my weaknesses; sometimes I'm so shrouded by my own conceived thoughts and opinions on how everything should be. Force me to look past that then. Make me see that things can be different.

The oppurtunity is right in front of you; just take it. Just prove it that I am wrong. Prove it that I am not perfect.

Prove it that I have lost.

And you have won.

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Please, I am not bitter. I should just be given a big slap back into reality.

God, this haze is so terrible. It's bad enough having to feel and see it around your own house. I don't even want to step outside anymore. And I wanna go to Bangsar tomorrow! This thing doesn't look like it's going to lift up for a while though. I hate to say it, but I'm not really liking Malaysia much right now...

Parade

I've earned my en-suite bedroom. :)

So now I have to start cracking on my VISA and plan out checklists (which my mum will enthusiastically do) and savour these last few weeks here! AAAHH!

I'm leaving on the 22nd of September. Mark it down boys and girls. :(

I'm off to South Africa for a holiday next week so things are going to be a bit of a rush once I come back at the end of the month. Hope it's all good though.

Right now, it's the feeling of relief more than anything really. So, I don't really know what to say. I'm just thankful everything's gone through well and hopefully things will keep on going this way.

So, it's about one and a half months left here. Time to go all out and take some risks? I've always thought of myself as pretty ballsy and this is one small thing I can really enjoy before I go. Why am I being so analytical about this? Gah.

I wonder how far Washington is from England.

*SCREAMS*

ANYWAY. I got my credit card yesterday. I swear I had a teeny orgasm when my dad waved it in front of my face. Time to break in the plastic.

Congrats to everyone and best wishes!

Too Much

Fuck the new 21 ruling. I only got to enjoy the feeling of "legal-ness" for about 8 months.

And results out in less than 2 days now.

*Rocks back and forth in chair*

The Lovin' Ain't The Same

I got this message around 3 o'clock today:-

You know what happened, a friend of mine said she worked in Fendi, so on the way home, I pop in to see her and it turns out-she doesn't work there anymore!

Ah, fuck! This is where I want to publicly apologize to Hisham for going through all the trouble and also--for failing to tell him I've stopped working there. ( They never even technically told me they didn't need me anymore man...they only said they'd call. PHOOEY)

At the EXACT same time, I got this from Farwin:-

Yo az...some dude just came in here and asked for you man??

Double fuck. Oh well, least you met him already right Far Far?


So, for the record-I don't work there anymore.

*Mumblegrumble*

Can someone please find me something else? PLEASE. Something really small and minisculed where my presence won't even be noticed. I'm bored out of my fucking mind. And the only thing that's comforting me now is that results will be out next week?

Contradicting sentence but what the hell. Least once I know how the hell I did, I can get started in getting ready all the shit I need. Which will take up most of my time and free me from this stagnant state I've been in.

In the meantime, I will stick to my friends (who are indeed working) like parasites and mooch off their moolah. Hello you people working at law firms and retail stores!

And I should get back to planning this Redang/Singapore trip, which I'm not so sure is going to happeeennnn. I hope it does. I need some spontaneity at least.

Oh, is that 21 rule for clubs fully enforced now? Bugger. I wanted to go dancing this Thursday.