chasing my own tail

I want to rant and moan and drone on about a lot of things on this blog. I have nothing wrong with people writing about their personal lives on blogs- the internet is a public domain. It's a personal choice if you choose to let people have a glimpse into your life. Why else would you set up a blog in the first place? Even if you do set up some sort of private blog-you're still letting a certain amount of people to view it.

That's what it's all about. It's not like one of those personal diaries you write in. The reason you actually hid those things in your underwear drawer was so that no one could read it.

But, by giving your life a URL you're taking that risk of letting people find out what you're all about. Your views are there wide open for the world to see. And with that, people may not always see the world as you do.

Step up to the plate. You're the one that set up a PUBLIC journal. Don't bitch when people voice out their own opinions. They have a right to, just as you do in publishing whatever you want on the internet.

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It's funny that I hold that thought in my head when I find myself censoring my own feelings. There's so much more I want to say sometimes but I just find myself holding back. It's conflicting- I put up this blog as some sort of channel for my thoughts. But now, I find myself writing mere ramblings and vague song lyrics that are masking what I'm actually thinking about at that time.

It's like i'm fighting with myself. It's so wrong. I haven't come to the point where I feel this blog is some sort of obligation and I have to update for the sake of it. Thank god. But it's just so wrong where I don't even feel comfortable writing my own personal thoughts onto my own personal blog!

...I think I know what it is. I've been there. The whole blog war thing. It didn't concern my blog but I was part of the whole conflict with other people's blogs. It's damaging. I've seen worse definitely- but finding out things over the internet ( on someone's own personal site for that matter) rather than face to face. Well, it fucks you up.

I don't want to fuck people up. At the same time, I feel I have the right to say what I want, this is my own site, I've let it be public.

So how? *Sigh* At least this post has been all about what I'm feeling right now. Just other things in my head that I want to just rant about but I don't want to cause further aggravation. Let's just say, when people find things out-it all goes downhill from there baby.


oh, socio paper sucked by the way.