For The Record

If I had a dick, Blogspot would be sucking it right now. My post is gone!

Oh well.

The gist is this. I'm browsing through my music playlist, downloading some new songs and listening to some old ones. I got to thinking, what songs would sum up the "soundtrack for my life"? I remember bringing up the idea with a friend of mine a while ago, but I was refrained from doing so. As he explained, "Don't do it if you know what's good for you."

Whatever.

BUT, I guess the fact that I'm not in my 'prime' and am only 18 years young, making that sort of thing would be a little premature. Don't you hate it when these pop groups who've only been around for like, 5 years make greatest hits albums? Greatest hits albums should only be made when you've put on 20 pounds, have a receeding hairline and your fanbase is going through mid-life crisis. It's only appropriate.

I love that music evokes all sorts of emotions and brings back so many memories. Good or bad, it's nice to be able to remember a certain moment in your life just by listening a song.

For example, ironic though true, I was listening to Jimmy Eat World's "Bleed American" during the September 11th incident. :/

Here's the lyrics of a song I have not heard for a while till now. FLASHBACK: April, 2003

You called yesterday to basically say
That you care for me
But that you're just not in love
Immediately, I pretended
To be feeling similarly
And led you to believe I was OK
To just walk away from the one thing
That's unyielding and sacred to me

Well, I guess I'm trying to be
Non-chalant about it
And I'm going to extremes
To prove I'm fine without you
But in reality
I'm slowly losing my mind
Underneath the guise of a smile
Gradually, I'm dying inside
Friends ask me how I feel
And I lie convincingly
'Cause I don't want to reveal
The fact that that I'm suffering
So, I wear my disguise
'Til I go home at night
And turn down all the lights
And then I break down and cry

So, what do you do
When somebody you're devoted to
Suddenly just stops loving you
And it seems they haven't got a clue
Of the pain that rejection
Is putting you through
Do you cling to your pride
And sing "I Will Survive"
Do you lash out and say
"How dare you leave this way"
Do you hold on in vain
As they just slip away

I remember listening to this song and it seemed like the lyrics were literally pouring out from my very own thoughts. People would ask me how I was and I'd tell them, "Listen to this song". Knowing me, it's usually very deep songs with subliminal and vague messages that get me all emotional-so this song is different in its own way to me.

One for the soundtrack?