I've had the stat checker on my blog for a long time now. So I know who reads my blog. And I noticed for a long time someone who even goes to the extent of checking my website almost every fucking day. Got nothing better to do?


Get a fucking life bitch and stop snooping around mine.

I go on MSN and see that we both have the exact same personal message as our nicks.

Him: Coindence much? Who's on your mind?..
Me: I'll tell you if you tell me who's on yours..

He's my current source of spontaniety and fun here. And he's leaving this Saturday.

Hahahahahahaha. T R A G I C.

I swear someone out there reaaaaaally hates me.

If only you knew

Filling out my 'Personal Objectives' form for my placement.

What are your current weaknesses?
Speaking out and communicating effectively.

I never say what I really want to say. Things come out of my mouth rehearsed because I give the same answers all the time- and they're never the right ones. But when I let the floodgates open, man, does it flow.

I wish I told you...

that it was me all along. even though you knew.

that I was angry, but I could never fathom being mad at you.

that I listen to you, because I know no one else would.

that you were my first.

how I really felt, even though you never wanted to hear it.

the truth.



Oh well, I'm halfway there.

one thing I won't miss here is shit british tv. people that go on brainteaser are fucking dumb.

i feel lonely :/. i think i'm ready to go home now.

I WANT TO GO BACK TO BATH.

i think i'm suffering withdrawl symptoms, from EVERYTHING. i miss everyone. i miss him!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

7 months.

i'm gonna go cry myself to sleep now.

When I say shotgun, you say ready.

I got an email from Ernst and Young-saying they were very interested in my application but are still going through their screening process. Any delay is seriously regretted.

FUCK YOU.

I am leaving, and I don't want to.

Could it be that everything goes 'round by chance?
Or only one way that it was always meant to be
You kill me, you always know the perfect thing to say
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away

Oh God, please don't tell me this has been in vain
I need answers for what all the waiting I've done means
You kill me, you've got some nerve, but can't face your mistakes
I know what I should do, but I just can't turn away

I can't help it baby, this is who I am
Sorry, but I can't just go turn off how I feel
You kill me, you build me up, but just to watch me break
I know what I should do, but I just can't walk away


I hate how I'm being a burden to you.

I'm not much of a risk-taker. But somehow, I think you might be worth it.

I'm just scared to lose out on what I have now.

ARGHHHH.

I think i'm better off making this a narcissistic, "look what I got when I went shopping" blog, so people won't have to deal with my vague ramblings and petty love life.

I'm just SO CONFUSED.

Help.

I think home just reminds me of the things I wanted to forget about in UK.

I'm so confused.

*deleted*

let's just leave it at that.

Come With Me

I love how it's 5.3o in the evening and there are no signs of it getting dark anytime soon. It's just as sunny as it was this afternoon.

Spring is finally here. :)

Running away from my commitments? You could say that.

I have faith that this will get better..

Absolutely shitty week. It started off with a bang and it's all downhill, and it's only Friday! I've lost count on the people I've dissapointed and how many times.

I'M SORRY EVERYONE!

Home in 3 days. I need this.

I wonder if when I come back from this break, how different things will be,

you said you needed time and you had time
what did you decide?

It's ringing in my head.

I wonder if I'm going home at all, but that's a different story.

Maybe Baby

I'm listening to Tango Redd's Let's Cheat and it's hella sexy and it's making me wish I had another boyfriend so I could cheat on him with Shaymal. If that makes sense.

One thing I hate about the life here is that there's always something that needs to be done. If I'm done with some major assignment (OB in class test) I have to get started on something else more trivial (laundry). I want to be selfish for once and make other people do my work for me so I can just rest for a bit. A part of me feels that I shouldn't be going home just yet because so many things have yet to be finalised and it's annoying the hell out of meeeeee.

Highlight of Malaysian Evening today: I won the first prize lucky draw. Booya! A voucher for 50% off at a Chinese Restaurant. YAY :)

Have soooo much to do tomorrow, it's not even funny.

Shaymal just blew his horn into my face. It's time for bed.

Starting to feel...

...like I'm wasting my time.

Show me this is going to be worthwhile.

Because I don't need this.